I got some books from Japan to satisfy my craving for reading.
In a novel, a description about the special memory for an individual comes. You have unforgettable scenery when you search through the memories of your life. It is personal and somehow very special and impressive, stirring the emotions within you.
I have such scenery. It has been coming back not frequently but a number of times in my life. Often it is a surprise. When it happens, I recognize myself drawn by the scenery in an instant.
What is more important may be the feeling I get each time rather than the actual incident happening in it. Who, what and why doesn’t seem to be so important. Altogether the scenery triggers a certain state of mind. It touches somewhere very deep inside me.
I am not looking for an answer there. I am just thrown in the vivid emotions. I am feeling myself without concluding anything. I am not concluding but certain that ‘this’ is important to me. That certainness is like a trustable anchor in the huge, dark, deep ocean.
It continues to say, ‘Don’t you have such scenery in your life? As far as you have it, you can keep going no matter what’.
Each time I am thrown into the dark ocean with that tiny but solid anchor, I eventually feel I am okay. Although I am about to be lost in the quiet water, the anchor reminds me I am okay.